So far 2012 has been treating me well. I’d like to say there’s something wrong, but there are probably a million (or a billion) other people out there that would love my problems. I’m just unfamiliar with the situation, this situation, in particular. My brother is leaving, my best friend has a new home, and I had probably seen the last of some close friends of mine. It’s funny because all of the people leaving are people I can easily get into an argument with. Not because I would with that of bad intentions in doing so, but because I’d be comfortable and I know them enough. What bothers me most is that I had arguments with a good amount of all of them a bit above a casual level. I’d imagine everything is okay now, but I don’t feel the redemption that suits it.
I’m not the kind of person where a gratuitous attitude toward me is all I need (not anymore). I want more nowadays. I don’t want the wrong idea to get across, because I’m happy for all who are leaving or have left. Like I said, I’m not accustomed to how things are going down so far. What I mean by that is that I usually celebrate New Year’s with friends and family (like everybody else does), but I’ve never had to say so many good-byes at once and had such a change in lifestyle just after welcoming the new year. It’s a first for me.
I still do believe my brother should leave for the sake of learning and living, my best friend should move on and take more responsibility, and that my other close friends leaving should continue and to try your hardest to not let things get you down (even if they’re really big important things).
I understand change, good-byes, and even keeping in touch. I understand all of them, but not everyone can. Next time I see you guys I know that we aren’t going to be the same brothers, friends, or even foes we see each other as now. That is what I perceive. Can we all familiarize with that? (Even faintly?) Some things might always stay unsaid. I’m taking my time right now to say on Tumblr, good-bye and good luck to the you you are right now and hope the changes we undergo are for the good. Stay Steady. This is where things get hectic again.. Winter Quarter